Tuesday, June 19, 2012

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IT FEELS GREAT TO BE BACK INTO THE WHOLE RUNNING EVERY MORNING THING. I USED TO RUN EVERY NIGHT, BUT NOW THAT SUMMER IS HERE I THINK MORNINGS WILL BE A GOOD THING TO START MY DAY OFF.

I GET MY PATRIARCHAL BLESSING SO SOON...I CANNOT WAIT. I HAVE BEEN WANTING IT FOR SO LONG.

FINALLY.

I TOOK LOLA TO THE PARK AFTER MY RUN AND WAS JUST WALKING WITH HER TALKING TO HER, LISTENING TO HER. WE WALKED PAST A BUSH WITH PURPLE FLOWERS ON IT AND SHE STARTED TO SING THE PRIMARY SONG "WHENEVER I HEAR THE SONG OF A BIRD, OR WALK BY A LILAC TREE...." WE STARTED SINGING IT TOGETHER AND I JUST STARTED CRYING.

ONE DAY.

ONE DAY, I WILL HAVE LITTLE KIDS OF MY OWN.
ONE DAY, I WILL BE SINGING CHURCH SONGS WITH THEM.
ONE DAY, I WILL BE MY KIDS BIGGEST ROLE MODEL. 
ONE DAY, I WILL FEEL AN INDESCRIBABLE LOVE FOR MY KIDS.
ONE DAY, I WILL BE A MOTHER.

I HONESTLY CANNOT WAIT. I LOVE THEM ALREADY. I HATE THE GIRLS THAT WILL MAKE THEM FEEL INSECURE. THE BOYS THAT WILL BEAT UP ON THEM. THE BOYFRIENDS THAT MESS WITH MY DAUGHTERS FEELINGS. AND THE GIRLFRIENDS THAT DON'T UNDERSTAND MY SONS. I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET THEM. AND I HOPE THEY LOVE ME JUST AS MUCH AS I WILL.


1 comment:

  1. I feel this same way too! Everyday.

    I love my kids and my husband already. hahah

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