Wednesday, February 29, 2012

ya'll ready for this one?!
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i had the weirdest dream last night. i woke up so confused.. it started on valentines day, and i was going on a date, but it wasn't with landon, it was with my ex. so i pulled up to where we were supposed to meet and he was standing there with his shirt off and was apologizing for being late and showing up looking like we went in and ate and then we went to his house and watched a movie but we both wouldn't even touch each other because i had a boyfriend and he was mad at me for it...why he took me on the date then? no weird. haha dreams are wild...sometime rad, sometimes out of control. school freaking blows. honestly is it june 3rd yet?

zupas today. i owe landon. but its okay, because he owes me sushi on friday:) hellll yeah! i went to sammy's yesterday and got my usual. well, me and mcklendon shared our usuals, banana creme pie shake, coconut creme pie shake, battered fries, and cheesy battered fries. mmmm...a whole lot a fat is what that was. but boy did it taste great. we went to the one in PG because well...the provo one doesn't hold much that we want to see. i don't have work today and that is probably the best feeling in the world. don't get me wrong, i love my job, but a little freedom from the smell of crepes is good for me every once in a while. i ate breakfast at marleys this morning. did me pretty well...i prefer lunch there though.

is it seriously only wednesday? these days, i live for the weekend. the weeks seem to be going slower and slower...did i mention that school BLOWS?! literally..i can't believe i'm still stuck in this building they call 'high school' kill me. i skipped 2nd period today though and that felt pretty good..shhh don't tell landon, he'll shoot me! i need to get a car already! you'd think if your parents said to you, pick out a car and we'll buy it, you'd get right on that! but i honestly cannot decide what to's harder than it looks! i am a #1 procrastinator is what it is, i still have to talk to the people at Alpine Village about moving in for the summer. someone please just tattoo a 'to do' list on my forehead. 

speaking of tattoos. landon and i were feeling a bit spontaneous on sunday and decided to 'one of ours' (deeper than a regular promise) that we would both get a tattoo on my 18th birthday this year. i'm stoked. now we both can't puss out...i feel like doing something crazy, something reckless, illegal, something that i could get in trouble for. i'm in the weirdest mood. i think i need to just take a road trip with my best friends and get the hell out of's doing weird things to my head to be trapped in this place for so long. C A L I F O R N I A  it is. the beach is seriously calling my name...i need to feel the sand between my toes, have the UV rays beat down on my skin, have the waves crash down on my body, and surf the waves. its been far too long..well, that's about all that is going through my head right about now....enjoy. till next time snitches,


top TEN favorite L O V E quotes:
(don't hate. its one of those days)

1. i love him. and that's the beginning and end of everything.

2. you know you are in love when you cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

3. for, you see, each day i love you more, today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

4. i love you, not only for what you are, but for what i am when i am with you.

5. don't say you love me unless you really mean it, because i might do something crazy like believe it.

6. if you love something, let it go. if it comes back to you, its yours forever. if it doesn't, then it was never meant to be.

7. when two people are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear them apart.

8. when i saw you i was afraid to meet you. when i met you i was afraid to kiss you. when i kissed you i was afraid to love you. now that i love you, i am afraid to lose you.

9. sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things i want to say can find no voice. then, in silence, i can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

10. the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else...

mushy mush mush mush mush...:)

1 universe,
 9 planets, 
204 countries,
 809 islands, 
7 seas, 
and i had the privilege to meet you.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

 love is just a word
until someone comes along
and gives it meaning.
      its quite simple.

im craving the B E A C H.

and i need S U M M E R.


i've honestly been feeling so depressed lately. upon the search to dig deep into my inner self to find the reasoning behind these feelings, i came across these pictures and began to cry when i realized how much i missed the beach. the fresh air. no cares. no one to tell me what to do. no problems. STRESS FREE

something that i haven't felt in a long time. could it be that i am so overwhelmed with life that something so simple could make me feel so much better? absolutely, positively, YES.i just need to get away for a while..

Monday, February 27, 2012

"someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else." ...suck it THING...karmas A bitch.

  let me go home

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

t o  e a c h  t h e i r  o w n

<<::whatever floats your boat::>>

some people say its weird, i say its different.
im obsessed with this girl lately. this is me and Landons feel good music:)

-knock, knock
-don't let me fall
-the show
-trouble is a friend
-heart skips a beat
-we will not grow old

and...her new album that came out on Feb 18th.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

....l i g h t s<<<>>>f l a s h e s....


so true.

to me, you are PERFECT

life isn't about searching forever hoping that you will find the ideal person for you.

its about falling in love with an imperfect person, and learning to see them perfectly.

we are all human, and we all have flaws. its about finding that one person that their flaws
you can live with.

it is then, that you truly know what love is. when you can love so unconditionally that nothing
they do, could ever change the way you feel about them.

and when you can get that same love in return, how perfect will your love be together.


Friday, February 17, 2012

hurts so good

you know the feeling of when you remember something, and its not necessarily a bad memory, but you just hate the thought that merely that's all it is? a memory. and how bad you wish you could take back whatever made it into one. the feeling where you remember something so good that it hurts so bad to think that its gone.

the brain is a strange forget the things that you want to remember, and you remember the things you wish you could forget. one of the worst feelings in the world is remembering something that was so good and then realizing that the reason it's gone is because of something you did.

yes, everything does happen for a reason i do believe that more than anything. but sometimes i find myself wondering what it would be like if i would have chosen something different.

wouldn't it be nice if when placed in a sticky situation where we had to choose between two things and we were unsure which to choose, we could just yell, "PAUSE!" choose one and see the outcome, and then go back and choose the other and decide which one based on what we'd experienced? life would be so much easier!

i sound depressed and unhappy, when in all reality i could not be any happier. how could i not be? i found the love of my life because of decisions that i have made and i would never take those back, i am in such a good place in my life and i only have my past to thank me for that.

 everything we do in life is to help us learn and grow. and i think that is why we "remember". why its so hard to get the past out of our heads. and why its so easy to forget the little joys of life. because if we didn't remember the mistakes we have made in life, then how could we ever change? how could we ever feel remorse for making someone feel the way you did? yes, it hurts. but the hurt is good. and for that, i am grateful.

till next time,

Thursday, February 16, 2012

one fine day i will have a house

with lots of THESE colors

and lots of unique THINGS

to share with...THEM

>>>>i'm feeling grateful<<<<


the times i have the most to say
are the times that i cant talk.

so...speak ONLY when it improves the silence

i've found myself having less and less to say lately.
frankly, its been scaring the SHIT out of me.
i've had to question myself a few times, "do i even care?"
but i've realized, some of the most important feelings and comments are left unsaid. because sometimes, you just can't quite get it out the way you would want to. so you just never say it..

could be a good thing, could be bad. but in my opinion, say how you feel. find the most perfect way to say it, wait for the perfect moment and get it out.but remember, not all feelings have to be shared verbally. silence is not all bad. some of the greatest emotions are shared through silence. a sweet kiss. a genuine smile. a hard gaze into someones eyes. and some of the most genuine love and emotions can be shared through silence.

         >>>>>>>>>>as john mayer once said<<<<<<<<<<

         "say what you need to say"

say it. mean it. do not regret it.