i write for myself, i write to better understand the meaning of things in this CRAZY world...but better yet, i write to try to better myself in areas i'm lacking in...
1. to cease to blame or hold resentment against (someone or something)
2. to grant pardon for (a mistake, wrongdoing, etc.)
3. (tr) to free or pardon (someone) from penalty4. (tr) to free from the obligation of (a debt, payment, etc.)
although i understood the meaning of forgiveness, and how essential it truly is to MY own happiness, what i didn't understand is that by forgiving, it doesn't mean you automatically forget. and i think it is blessing that, that indeed is the case. we are put in this world to live, make mistakes, learn, and forgiveness is a HUGE necessity when it comes to making mistakes.
this is sort of weird for me to be thinking about..i'm just graduating high school, not married, no where NEAR having children, but i can't help but think of motherhood when it comes to forgiveness. i can only imagine the love and compassion a mother feels for her kids. and then i think about holding an infant in my arms and reflecting on all of the trials i have been through, and the mistakes i have made, and praying to God that this child will make better decisions and do things the easy way! --is it weird to say that sometimes i honestly could cry when i think about it? almost as if i already feel the love for my future kids.. i already dread the day they come to me crying about a boy breaking their heart, and knowing the exact feeling, but knowing there really anything I can do, but teach them to forgive.
forgiveness will truly get you through anything. no, sad to say it won't stop the pain. you will NOT forget how someone made you feel in any circumstance...but that is for OUR good. that is so that we will be smarter the next time around. we make mistakes, so that we can learn from them and experience what we don't want. and when we hurt, so that we are grateful when we are in our prime.
there is opposition in ALL things.
dont ever worry about getting someone back, they WILL get theres. if anyone believes in karma its THIS girl right here...we need to just forgive, and •let go• of whatever anyone does to us. we are only hurting ourselves by dwelling on things.
the next most important key to forgiveness....we HAVE to forgive ourselves. like holding onto what others do to us, just the same, by holding onto things WE have done and not letting go, is only damaging our very own souls. life is wonderful! there is so much to live for, everyone makes mistakes, and believe it or not, there is someone in this world that has gone through the very same thing i have to struggle with. but the sooner we are able to realize that, and move on, the easier it will be to not have to -THINK- about what we cannot forget.
well that's all for now. till next time snitches.